I know. I know. I said I was going to try to keep this thing up and going. I was just teasing apparently. :) This has been a rough summer for me. Not as rough as last summer with Mother almost dying or anything, but still... rough. I'm pretty sure life continues to go on around me, but unfortunately, I have missed most of it. I won't go into details, mainly because of the level of self-denial that I cherish so dearly, but lets just say I haven't been myself much lately.
I was blessed with an extremely humbling, and spiritually uplifting experience this summer, but putting it into words for the world to read is a hard thing for me to write. Yes, I know the "world" doesn't read my silly blog, but at least two people do and I like to keep emotional stuff hidden deep within me~ hence the deep level of self-denial. :)
I was able to go with Mike to Arizona and view his sister for the last time, on this earth anyway. She was an incredibly strong spirit while here on earth and she continues to be one in the spirit world. I guess that would just go to testify that I am a pain in the rear here on earth and I will continue to be one in the spirit world. ;) But this isn't about me... well, maybe it is. While in Arizona surrounded by loving family and friends, I was able to realize a few things. The spirit world is so close. The veil was very thin often during our visit. I haven't experienced the veil being that thin very often. I don't like to admit this, but it has only been when death or near death has been involved that I have noticed the veil being so thin. The reason I don't like to admit that is because I don't like death. I guess no one really does. The only good thing is that you grow so much spiritually stronger while going thru those times. Maybe it's because we can't rely on ourselves and we HAVE to rely on our brother Jesus Christ and the knowledge that He knows what he is doing.
I also learned that change is possible. I have seen light bulbs turn on that I thought were broken. Big changes are coming due to these new replaced light bulbs. I am thankful for the renewed vigor of my testimony. Hopefully I will keep my self-denial in check and allow myself the opportunity to continue to learn and grow. We shall see how this turns out soon enough. :)
I also realized the importance of family. We all play such a pivotal role in the confines of a family. What a great eye-opener to see that it's important to recognize the good in everyone and to call them on it frequently. I have tried this with my kids and it's been amazing the way they have responded. It's like they are more willing to talk to me and hang out with me now. Sometimes I wish things were back the way they used to be. I used to be able to take a nap without 4 kids coming and having a tickle fest. Oh well. I'd rather play with my kids than sleep my life away anyways ~ and NO. don't quote me. I will deny it! ;)
Hopefully I will be better at writing on this thing. Maybe next time I will have something to say that is not so deep. I guess I've had a bunch of hidden thoughts deep in the crevasses of my brain that have been waiting to make their escape. All I can say is that I'm sorry to the two of you who read this. You will just have to overlook this rampage of my inner thoughts and excuse me while my self control is on hiatus. ;)
